Hi :). At school now, @ACC (Arts & Cultural Center) waiting for practice to begin... We are rehearsing for tomorrow's DESA (Dance.Eat.Sing.Act).
Last night only slept for around 3 hours then had to go to school early to study LTB :(. Now I'm very sleepy and feeling very dizzy.
Short post;; no idea what to write...
Will update soon :)
So, after some devastating moments we went through, yesterday night we decided to go to the Night Safari.
The idea came out of nowhere but oh well, it's been quite fun because at least we did not only see animals of the night but also.....
Creatures of the Night
wow, that rings a bell... yeah, the Phantom of the Opera!
I love this musical show! I saw one live in Las Vegas last December :D
Anyway, back to the trip. The Night Safari has come out with this event starting on October to celebrate Halloween (and of course, to attract tourists - not that I mind)
We reached at 9:10. At first we want to go for a Halloween cocktail ride but it's fully booked. So in the end we only buy the entrance ticket and the tram ride. Before we went in... we bought B&J's (Ben & Jerry's) ice cream and took pictures in front of the B&J's logo. I'll post along the pictures later :). Unfortunately we don't have the chance to take pictures together (my sister said that's the hard part of traveling alone or with one another person: cannot take pictures of ourselves!).
After finishing the ice cream we boarded the Halloween Tram. It's much like the usual tram, going around the safari with someone explaining the animals. But this guide voice is so creepy like and there are occasional scares. The Halloween Tram also went through the Gate of Hell made for people abusing or hurting or hunting or killing or skinning or .. or .. or ... animals. This place is quite creepy. Some of the so-called 'actors' acting as scary scary ghosts actually scare us and some even boarded the train (Holy Sh*t!). It was not really scary but it was very heart-shockingly surprising.
After the tram ride we also walked around through the trails. One of the trails was the Halloween route. And again, got people scaring us. My sister was the one screaming though.. I did not scream but I was surprise and scared as well (I'm not a girl who screams when I'm scared). The walk was quite long and we were exhausted when we reached the entrance again. By the time we boarded the taxi to go home it was 12+ and we got 50% overcharge T___T.
Pictures:
and i am still tearing
drops trickle unexpectedly
waves of guilt within me
will we walk away a stronger entity?
will the goodness (i thought it was good) slip away?
such a facade
or are we too blind to see?
i am strugling with this uncertainty
credit: a.s. (comment to the post 'taking it for the granted')
Yesterday I have a little chat with my sister and we came to something she had read before: that sometimes people who you love the most will end up as people who you don't even bother to think about their feeling when you are with them.
I reflected it.
And its true.
We will dress up when we meet or friends
but we wont when we are going out with our own family
We will talk politely with a stranger even when we are in a bad mood
but we won't talk politely with our family when we are in a bad mood
I found this very true, I found this very disturbing.Perhaps, someday I will be able to care adequately to the people I love the most.
After the two highly melancholic posts, I think it's appropriate to give something less saddening to you all :). (and also I am trying to entertain myself out of my saddened self).
School's been fine so far. I don't think I'm coping up that well for the lesson but I guess time is all I need to adjust. Probably won't get a high GPA or something but I'm quite enthusiastic that next term will be better.
One week recess is about to end in... two days (counting) - although recess does not feel like a recess at all.
However, some entertaining things had happened. DESA practice, for one. DESA is abbreviation for Dance-Eat-Sing-Act - a performance by SMUKI (SMU Komunitas Indonesia) to be performed next Friday (Oct 17). At first all these gamelan practices felt really boring but on combined rehearsal - it's a different case.
It is safe to assume that all SMUKI-ers are quite out of their mind -- especially after today. So after rehearsal those who don't really have other stuffs to do (me, for instance) stayed behind, helping the Narojeng (sp?) dance team to practice. During the vacant time, however, they turned the rehearsal to live-band performance; starring Ernest, Sylvia, Sugiek, and several others xD. Quite entertaining, they are.
Also, I've never thought that Hiubert (forgive the weird name spelling), could perform the sissy dukun very well. He's super funny and I cannot stop laughing. For those reading this post, DESA next Friday really SHOULD NOT be missed.
You will get a preview of Indonesian culture, as well as entertaining show, and... of course, FOOD! (Padang cuisine :3)
Right now, there is a burden in my heart
A burden I wish to redeem soon
A burden caused by my own ignorance
A burden caused by my own action
I've never felt this burden inside
Probably because I am too thick to notice
Because my own ego entice
Right now I'm trying to redeem
Hopefully the chance will arrive
The chance where I can say to you
face to face
that I love you
Things had happened since I last wrote. Before today, I've wanted to write countless times but I cannot seem to win against my tendency to be lazy and to procrastinate.
The event today however, cannot be skipped.
Something big has happened, causing quite a mess to my life. However, after several hours of crying (not nonstop -- I keep crying, stopping, and crying again), I realize that this might happen because it ought to happen in order to fix the mess that has been looked over by me so far.
I'm not saying anything. However, it concerned someone in my immediate family. I myself always put family as priority beyond others. And although it seems so in my mind, when I act it out, it might not be true. Sadly, it's proven untrue from today's event.
Hopefully this realization will make me to be a better person and act accordingly to my priority.
ILY, my dearest family
To the special someone who caused this mess although it's very unlikely that you will read nor understand this post ever: yes, I LOVE YOU even though I never say it out loud. (no, we never speak it out loud in our family -- mostly affection by conduct and not words.)
